5th December 2008

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regret.

you know how sometimes you do something and when you wake up the morning you are laying in bed thinking to yourself… “what did i get myself into?”

I think that everyone has these moments.

the definition of regret in websters dictionary is: a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.

i think that according to this definition i face some form of regret everyday in my life.

no matter how many times you wish you could take something back and wish you never would have done it. there is absolutely no way to turn back time… there is no such thing as a time machine.

i often think that if a time machine existed i would not use one. yes i have SO many regrets i my life, and i have done some extremly aweful things that i hate owning up to. i hate thinking back and wondering what the hell was i thinking…

however.

i would not want to chage any of these moments. these regrets i have felt in my life have made me into the person i am today. if i didn’t have regrets i wouldn’t be in college, i wouldn’t have the best BESTIE  in the world, and i sure as hell wouldn’t be as fun as i think i am.

our regrets, no matter how dirty and shameful they are, mold us. yes, we may never want to tell anyone about them. but they are still there and they will never go away. so all we can do is keep on going. keep on living our lives accumulating enough regrets to circle the world, because without regrets we would be the most boring society… ever.

always remember that no matter what you do, the people who love you will never leave your side. They will never hold your actions against you. they will alway call even when they know you don’t want to talk, they will text even if you don’t anser till an hour later… those few people are not going anywhere anytime soon. they will never regret you, they will never regret any time spent with you. even if you are not having the best time ever.

so regret is something that in some ways is in the eye of the beholder. take your regrets and do with them what you may… however, learn from your mistakes, live the shit out of your life, don’t EVER care what people think of you, and play your music as loud as you want so you can shake that little ass to it all night long.